Finding Reality

Theatre....

2008-10-15T07:49:18Z

Ok so honestly... its been way too long since the last time I acted.

I realized this just a little while ago. I was rehearsing my 2 monologues that I have prepared for my Beginning Acting class and.... I was just overcome with this... feeling...
I'll try my best to describe it as well as I can...

As I was in the middle of my dramatic monologue something came over me; almost like a chill but, not as cold as a chill. It was more of a tingle. It rose from my feet, up my legs, into my stomach, and simultaneously on down my arms to the tips of my fingers and up my chest out my mouth as I spoke the words. It was at that moment that I realized theres no doubt in my mind that I LOVE this. Whether or not its what I'll be doing for the rest of my life or not, its definitely love and any time I spend getting better at it.... is well worth it because no matter how stressful it may be at times, once you've got it, its the best feeling ever.

I cant wait to perform each of my monologues tomorrow in class, because the rush of an audience is even more exhilarating.

-JoshuANewton

Laziness

2008-10-02T16:30:18Z

For one Im still upset no one else uses livejournal....
Just thought I should throw that out there

Anyways on to the purpose of my posting...
WHY IS IT SO HARD TO GO TO CLASS?!?!?!
I wish I could just make myself get up and go you know?
I feel horrible I mean we're paying all this money for these classes and yet I have missed my Speech class atleast 4 times as of today....
Idk I mean I have no will to go to these classes....
Speech.... she tells us how to communicate with other people!
I know I may not be the best at it or even halfway decent but if I wanted to manipulate people by what I say Im pretty sure I could.
I dont want to do that though...
Why should I learn how to talk in a different tone to get people to do what I want?
AND I get a grade for attendance.... ugh!
D= Diploma right?
....grrrr

Anyways.... I just feel bad for missin these dumb classes....
Hows everyone else?

-JoshuANewton

Kinda Inspired....

2008-09-29T06:02:18Z

So I was sort of inspired by my oldest friend in the world to post something.... anything.... mainly because I told him I like hearing how he's doing and I realized I wasnt keeping him updated either....

So Ive been at college for... geeze... idk even know how long....
It doesnt feel like Ive been here very long at all
Mainly because.... I havent made any REAL close friends yet.
I have met up with old friends and made some new ones but.... not any extremely special friendships yet.... no offense
I really dont know how else to explain it....

Classes.... well they are classes
No matter how lat they may be I still dont seem to want to get up out of bed and go....
I know Im lazy...

As for the opposite sex....
I seem to always find myself surrounded by them and yet, nothing
The majority of my friends seem to always be girls...
The thing is thats all they are.... friends
However I do know of a mutual attraction between me and one girl I have met
Shes really cute btw.
BUT thats all it is right now and knowing me thats all it will ever be because I'll find some way to scare her off like I always do....
Whatevs....

As for my actual plans in life....
Man I wish I knew....
Im majoring in theatre.... but Idk what I want to do with it....
Ive talked with friends about a Production company but... the chances of that happening.... slim to NONE
I could be on staff at a Theatre... good luck making any money...
Idk what I want to do....
I do know I love Theatre though so.... Why not get a degree in it?
Ive always said Im gonna do something I love for a living so..... this is the path I take....

As for home....
Honestly I dont miss anyone.....
Again sorry if I offend....
But not many people gave me a reason to want to stay so Im glad to be gone....

Theres just a tiny update into my head....
I hope you understand me a little better

-JoshuANewton

So...

2008-08-13T04:14:31Z

Some of you may have noticed that I deleted you as my friend on myspace.

Dont be offended... I deleted everyone.

Im going to start a new one with my mac email address.
If I talk to you on a normal basis I'll re-add you if not... you can make the effort if you care.

Writer's Block: A Posthumous Oscar for Joker?

2008-08-12T19:33:36Z

Do you think Heath Ledger deserves the Oscar for his role in the Dark Knight?

Submitted By quinnpuddin

View 501 Answers

This is the DUMBEST question EVER!!!

Heath Ledger deserves every award possible and more for his role as The Joker. I have NEVER seen a part played so well. His portrayal of The Joker as a complete and utter lunatic was AMAZING, to say the least, and NO ONE else could have pulled that off.

-JoshuANewton

Attention:

2008-08-11T16:46:58Z

You are lame because you NEVER use livejournal....

I was posting excessively and would be still if I knew anyone was listening...
But none of you guys respond so... you're gay~!

-JoshuANewton

Cloud 9

2008-08-10T05:43:22Z

Not to be mistaken with the band.... sorry

I am TOTALLY ON CLOUD 9!!!!!
RIGHT NOW....
IVE BEEN ON IT SINCE I GOT HOME TODAY!!!!

Its not a girl though....
the ONLY down side...

BUT I dont plan on telling you what it is....
You have GOT to see for yourself

SO if you're interested
Hit me up!
Lets Hang!
713 305 4407

If you love me you WONT be disappointed
I PROMISE!!!

Making a Connection

2008-07-30T16:23:26Z

hey everyone!!!

Yea so a good while back I found out that a friend of a friend is goin to the same school as me....
TEXAS STATE!!!
The thing is we never really talked much... ever
Its not that I didnt care to know her or that I didnt like her
It just never happened you know?

ANYWAYS

Lately we've gotten the chance to hang out a few times and let me tell you guys...
SHES AWESOME
I regret not having hung out with her before now but...
I guess its ok cuz we're goin to the same school lol
We're definitely gonna have a blast over the next few years
Or so I hope...
I mean things could go bad but...
I dont see that happenin

And we're havin a party thursday at her bestfriends house (the friend that introduced us)
The first of many ;)

Which brings me to this

Your best friend(s)
Tell me a story or several lol
How did you meet them?
Anything Interesting or Ironic about you being best friends today?

If you dont have Livejournal... Make one!!!
Nah seriously if you dont have one just message me on myspace I still love you even if you're too lame to have a LJ ;)

So in conclusion...
Heres to making new friends that are freakin awesome as hell

-JAN

No Caffine Today

2008-07-22T13:01:25Z

Ok so lately I have been trying to do things a little healthier than I normally would.
It hasnt been some kind of hardcore cut from anything unhealthy... just trying to make it a point to choose the healthier choice of food or drink.

Right now is hardest because I know that in the condition Im in now caffine would be TONS of help.... but I cant do that...
I can resort to those methods....
I just need to stick it out....
Type enough to get blood blowing through my body at a faster than resting pace.

I fell asleep in the car this morning.
Thank God I was riding with my uncle lol
But ever since I got out of the car about 45minutes ago I have been fighting the eyelids from closing shut on me

It never fails... I'll probably sit here for another 30minutes atleast.... just staring
Not doing really anything in particular.... just staring off into space with only one thought repeating over and over in my head "stay up, dont go to sleep"

Ha... good luck...
I'll probably fall asleep for about 3 seconds here in a little bit

Well since I have nothing to say or even just ramble about....
Im done

-JoshuANewton

Long Time No Post

2008-07-21T19:14:48Z

Hey,
So its been quite awhile since I posted last...

Actually its only been 3 days....
It feels like forever because I havent posted a massively long journal in awhile. but idk if I want this one to be long or not.... I guess we'll just have to find out when Im done with my rambling.

So.... where to start....
The Dark Knight has definitely made the #1 spot on my favortie movies list.
Its the Batman movie Ive been waiting my whole life for. The characters are completely brought to reality in this movie which in turn brings you into the movie because it feels so real.

My friend Candice (the only person I know whos going to school with me) is at New Student Orientation (NSO) today and tomorrow which gets me PUMPED!!!
Mainly because I CANT WAIT to go off to San Marcos.

I Leave in EXACTLY one month!!!
1 month from RIGHT NOW (1:45) I'll be moving my stuff into my dorm :D
I CANT WAIT!!!
Im so ready to get out of sheldon...

Since I graduated...
I think I've seen my "best friends" (from school) a total of 2 times....
Its not like I havent tried... because I have....
The best part is...
Im o.k. with that Im through caring....
I tried and thats all that matters to me I know I made the effort and that the failed friendships arent my fault.

On a lighter note
My friend cassy is in San Marcos right now for a cheerleading camp and she said with the exception of about 5 our cheerleaders are pretty.
Lets hope that isnt information that goes to waste ;)

Ive wasted so much money this past week its not even funny...
From Dark Knight tickets to food to video games I'll probably only play twice, Ive spent almost $300...
I dont need to have money... It burns a hole in my pocket... It burns my pocket completely....

I recently have come to TRUELY appreciate Emery's latest cd "Im Only a Man"
But sadly I still cant listen to it too much...
It reminds me of things I've done that Im in no way proud of or even want to remember...

I need some form of excitement in my life... How do you do that? Get excitement?
Do you just wait for it? Or do you have to go looking for it?
If I have to wait on it... SOMEONE PLEASE just go ahead and bring some excitement to me!!!
If I have to go looking for it.... Goodbye nights consitsting of sitting on my ass!!!

My cousin has my acoustic... maybe thats a good thing.... then I dont have an excuse for not playing my electric or my drums...

Of course that all comes back to not having any motivation to do anything musical....
Its so hard to practice just to practice.... it feels pointless its like "ok where is this going to get me? what happens when I maybe get a little better?"
Idk....

Anyways... I think Im done with my complete and utter ramble-fest for today

Let me know what you think about anything I said.
I LOVE to talk to people :)

-JoshuANewton

The Dark Knight!!!

2008-07-18T13:25:11Z

The Dark Knight

Last Knight..... was AMAZING!!!

THE BEST BATMAN MOVIE EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

DONT PANIC!

2008-07-17T12:22:50Z

So hold on, it's gonna be hard day
So hang on, now. Don't panic
Don't panic, there simply is no need

It's gonna be a hard day
It's gonna be a hard day
Don't panic, don't panic
We are hanging here
We are hanging here

I was jammin to that rushing into work this morning because yesterday when I got home....

I DIDNT HAVE MY WALLET!!!!

AAAAAAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

NO WAY!!!
I NEED my wallet....
I NEED my debit card in order to redeem the tickets for the show tonight.....
NO!!!
I bought SEVEN tickets yesterday....
SEVEN~!!~
NO!!!
I NEED THAT CARD!!!!
I CANT MISS THE DARK KNIGHT!!!!

So I hurried into work today and powerwalked from the parking garage, into the building, up the elevator, down the hall, and to my desk.....it wasnt there...

I looked all over my desk, inmy chair, and on the floor....nothing...
CRAP!!!

But wait...
I was over there by the disc copier yesterday mailing software...
So maybe...
AH HAH!!!
YEA!!!

ITS HERE!!!!
(HUGE sigh of relief)

NOW I WONT MISS THE DARK KNIGHT TONIGHT !!!!*(*&#!!!!!$%!!!&#!!!!!>!?!!":!!!>!!!(@>!!"**!(!!!!

Ok today wil be great!

....except for the dentist appointment....
God I wish I had brushed my teeth better....
Oh well whats done is done...
Now its all close your eyes and bare the pain youve brought upon yourself by bein lazy....

-JoshuANewton

Movie Tickets

2008-07-16T19:49:13Z

Ok

So less than 5 minutes ago I bought tickets to THE DARK KNIGHT MIDNIGHT SHOWING!!!!

I know I have work the next day and I should be responsible and stay home to get enough sleep for work but.... its THE DARK KNIGHT!!!
Heath Ledgers LAST movie and from the looks of the previews he did an AMAZINGLY SPECTACULAR job at playing the Joker by far the best roll ever for him...

.....I hope itll make up for his gay cowboy roll....eghk!

ANYWAYS I just bought tickets for me and 5 of my best friends... but they're all payin me back!
....Maybe not brian... he always pays for me when I dont got cash....

I CANT WAIT!!!!!!!!!

--JoshuANewton

wow....

2008-07-15T16:49:36Z

Ok so I wrote this song a couple weeks back when I found out one of my best friends was goin to hawaii to visit family...
I wrote it as a love song (although there hasnt been anything like that between us for years) mainly just because it was easier for me to write it that way...dont get me wrong I do love her and her hugs are pretty much the best they brighten my day like nothing else. Anyways my point being I wrote this song on a whim and now the outcome of the situation in the song... its reality.....

Enjoy the Sun

Hawaii is so far away
I dont know what I'll do while your gone
Oh baby
You know I'll miss you bein in my arms
Did you really say two weeks
Two whole weeks away from home
Oh baby
I dont know what im gonna do

Enjoy the sun out there
the pacific wind in your hair
The crystal clear water
The refreshing ocean air
Enjoy the sand
Lay out and get a tan
Just dont get too attached
Id hate for you to stay

Hawaii is so far away
I cant believe you're gone
Oh baby
I just want you in my arms
You said just two weeks
Its been two whole months
And baby
I dont know what im gonna do

Enjoy the sun out there
the pacific wind in your hair
The crystal clear water
The refreshing ocean air
Enjoy the sand
Lay out and get a tan
I see you've gotten attached
I hate to think you're stayin

Please come back
You took my heart with you when you left
Baby Please come back
Im not the same without you
Baby please come back
We all miss you here in texas

yeah... shes in Hawaii... living with her family...

Home

2008-07-11T23:48:29Z

So Im home, and for a change I dont have anything to say....

jnewton90 @ 2008-06-30T07:53:00

2008-06-30T13:06:59Z

Come Six O'Clock

Its been way too long
Since Ive seen that gorgeous face
It feels like years
Can you believe its only been a few weeks
Its been way too long
Since Ive held your hand
Since Ive laid my head on your chest
I can barely remember how that feels

If it werent for this 9-5
Id be there first thing in the morning
So come 6 o'clock
I'll be at your house
Wanting nothing more than
Just to hold you

Youve been gone too long
I just wanna hold you
Just wanna hold you
Been gone so long
So long

Its been way too long
Since I've ssen that gorgeous face
I've got your picture on my desktop
Somehow that doesnt quite cut it
Its been way too long
Since Ive wrapped my arms around you
Since Ive felt your heart beat with mine
I miss how that feels

If it werent for this 9-5
Id be there first thing in the morning
So come 6 o'clock
I'll be at your house
Wanting nothing more than
Just to hold you

Youve been gone too long
I just wanna hold you
Just wanna hold you
Been gone so long
So long

If it werent for this 9-5
Id be there first thing in the morning
So come 6 o'clock
I'll be at your house
Come 6 o'clock
You'll be in my arms again
Come 6 o'clock
I'll be at your house
Come 6 o'clock
I wont ever want to let you go

Ambitions

2008-06-26T18:29:47Z

Things dont add up too well...

How does it seem that I have all these different hopes and ambitions and yet not one works out and not one other person ever believes theyll work...

Its kinda depressing that although my plan may have only a few tiny holes in it, it always gets slammed down or brushed aside by everyone else... very rarely do i have someone support my random dreams... and even more rare for me to have someone whos "in" with whatever it is...

Am I the only one who this happens to? Cuz it seriously is painful...

Huffman

2008-06-25T13:30:00Z

So last night I went out to take some pics of a few guys playin one of my ALL TIME favorite games.... Ultimate Frisbee.
The group as a whole seemed pretty cool. There were a few guys who were kinda... "eh..." toward me but w/e i wasnt too keen on them either I guess it had a lot to do with the way they were actin toward me but life goes on.

I got some new software from the Smiths for my grad. its pretty sweet I got like 1000+ new loops on garage band to play with now so im pretty pumped... just wish I had a REAL use for them not just some hope of a use for them...w/e

My friend Sarah has been playin The Sims and she made a bachelor pad for me and my friend Joe.... She texted me last night sayin I was datin this hott blonde sim and I brought her back home and we were makin out... Why cant I be as good as the computer version of myself?...

Anyways... I actually have some work to do today... I have to take some computers and monitors for decom (decommission). Lets see how long thats gonna last

An Answer to MTV and VH1

2008-06-23T18:06:52Z

If you know anything about the radio, MTV, or VH1 you know that a lot of REALLY GOOD bands will NEVER get air time on these... at least not enough to make a difference.

I hate listening to the radio I mean like really HATE listening to the radio because a lot of the music is CRAP its filled with bands that Major Record labels say are good and make you think they are... Ladies just because the guys are cute doesnt make them musicians because more than likely they didnt write their own music and their voices are probably edited to sound even half decent.

As for MTV and VH1 ok they have some good tv shows.... but lets be honest MTV has not TRUELY been a MusicTeleVision station for YEARS and VH1 eh.... ya ok they play some good music.
The thing is what about GREAT bands like Copeland, Death Cab For Cutie, Emery and all the bands that have found their way onto Indie Record labels and even unsigned bands good enough to open for bands like Paramore, UnderOath, and The Almost that actually make the show worth payin anywhere from $25-$40 for your ticket

They arent heard by anyone outside of the show scene.
Theres A LOT of good music out there and just because the Major Record Labels dont have a hand in it, its not being shown to the masses which I dont like....

We need a program devoted to Underdeveloped Music
Like a cooperation with the bigger Indie Labels across America and Venues that host semi-big shows in different states
To bands that are BIG locally but maybe no ones heard of them out of state to help them get their name out there let people know whats happening in the music scene in Texas, Florida, or Indiana

Maybe Business-wise this is a HORRIBLE idea
Maybe theres a MILLION holes in my plan but IDC I think its worth takin the time to get the project going and see how it turns out

Talk The Talk

2008-06-23T14:45:04Z

OK So someone PLEASE tell me Im not the only one who is SICK and TIRED of thios LAME metal "scene" thats happenin. Im fed up with going to look at venue bills and seeing ALL metal/hardcore/CRAP bands playin.

AGHAGAHAHGHA!!!!

ANYWAYS....

The moral of my story is we NEED some better music happening around here while Im at it check out this link

http://www.myspace.com/ttt1

I dont know much about these guys except that I like their music and they're tryin to get a fan base together to justify a tour.
And Id LOVE to get some bands down here that dont play CRAP.

On that same note... I find it hard to get people together to play music with... people who i think will mesh well with me atleast...
maybe Im being to picky? Or maybe its smart? Or maybe my lack of practicing is to blame?
I mean I LOVE playing my drums and my guitar...heck I even love playin my bass. The problem is if I have nothing to work towards.... NO goals set... I find it hard to practice... I feel like "whats the point?"

Idk what to think about the whole situation...
Im still kickin myself over talking bad about myself when Anthony asked me if I played drums.... I shoulda said "well lets jam some day and I'll let you decide." but I didnt.... I said "eh... im not that good" which was DUMB of me... ugh!
Now hes playin the drums and theyll probably get a new guitarist before they move anthony back to guitar because drummers are so unreliable and they know he wont bail.

I just wish someone would ask me about playing music instead of me searchin through my myspace friends list for everyone I know who plays guitar or can sing....
Idk....

The Armadillo

2008-06-20T18:38:11Z

Ok so I havent posted in like a day.... sue me for it geeze

      Well i know how much yall love my randomness of posts so....
      Last night mom and I went to go look at cars which was opretty legit... except at the honda dealership where they didnt have NOT ONE 4dr civic....I was pissed thats the car I wanted to look at the most and they didnt even have it... WHATEVER

       So we went down the row to the Mazda dealership where I saw the car i have ALWAYS wanted (well it used to be the Protege 5) they call it the Mazda3 5-door i LOVE that car and I always have ever since I was like 10 i knew a guy who had it in yello with black interior it was SAHWEET!!! but they dont make it in yellow anymore and it costs a pretty penny... but i got to test drive the mazda3 4-door which is the same basic concept just a different body and it rides GREAT

      Today Ive been woprking in receiving all alone and im more lost than I thoguht I would be.. : /
     guess I shoulda hung out here with kenneth this week... but whats done is done and I guess ima try to get things done as best as I can. If anything hes only out till tuesday how much could I honestly screw up in 2 days?.... right?... idk...

     Last night the blazers battery died on us...GAY. then this mornin mo got hit by a deer lol THE DEER HIT HER!! idk what the damage is but I plan to take the money from selling the blazer and buy a cheap car and flip it for more than I bought it for :) my future brotherinlaw gave me this great idea cyuz he does it all the time i mean like ALL THE TIME he does good at it so i plan to check it out

         Well I got computers to deliver to the 5th floor so I'll bbl maybe i'll post about the Game Night/ Cereal Party tonight at the church who knows :)

Frequency of Friendship

2008-06-19T14:28:57Z

          As the summer falls upon us and graduation seems like months ago I start to wonder. I wonder about how this summer will compare to every one I have had before, what college life will be like in a few months, and most of all where all of the "friendships" I had in high school will be at the end of summer?
         Its already to the point where I dont see them even on a weekly basis so who knows what it'll be like when Im 3hrs away... I mean if I want to talk to them Im always the one calling and when I do they dont seem too interested... maybe its my fault for having a job so I cant hang out on weekdays that much... but its ok because I do have friends I can rely on so no sweat.

        This all brings me to a series of questions Ive always wondered. What do you think a true friend is? What is a friend expected to do? What do you expect of yourself as a friend? Pretty much what do you think the title of "friendship" encompasses?

       If you have a LiveJournal please comment and share your thoughts

       If you only have myspace then shoot me a message

      Id love to hear what everyone thinks about this topic

Breakfast at Tiffanys

2008-06-18T13:46:53Z

         So today I started out the day hungry... so I went down to the basement cafe run by the vietchaporeanese people to get some grubage. I get down there order my sausage biscuit with hashbrowns and egg on it... not on the side but INside (oh yea). I grabed me an Arizona Tea and after she rung me up and told me it was 4.20.... they dont accept credit or debit... crap... all i have is $2 on me... but wait she says theres an ATM up on the first floor... of course there is now I can come back to pay for your crappy food... whatever...

         So I went up to the first floor to find the ATM. Had a little chat with kin-folk-shoe-shiner man and headed back to the basement for my food. Once I get there the lady behind the counter appologizes over and over again for the inconvenience, which im fine with until the 3rd or 7th time... then she just gets annoying. OK I GET IT youre sorry I said its ok a hundred times already jeeze. Apparently accepting credit costs money, the lady says you have to pay these guys and thoses guys and everyone in between for processing fees yadda yadda. I JUST WANT MY BISCUIT! I got my biscuit and drink and I left.

        Upon returning to the office here on the 2nd floor I ate my biscuit and before I could even taste it I realized I had already ate it all.... Now im tired again and have nothing to do and no way to keep myself awake for another 7hrs

Enjoy the Sun

2008-06-17T19:37:11Z

Enjoy the Sun

Hawaii is so far away
I dont know what I'll do while your gone
Oh baby
You know I'll miss you bein in my arms
Did you really say two weeks
Two whole weeks away from home
Oh baby
I dont know what im gonna do

Enjoy the sun out there
the pacific wind in your hair
The crystal clear water
The refreshing ocean air
Enjoy the sand
Lay out and get a tan
Just dont get too attached
Id hate for you to stay

Hawaii is so far away
I cant believe you're gone
Oh baby
I just want you in my arms
You said just two weeks
Its been two whole months
And baby
I dont know what im gonna do

Enjoy the sun out there
the pacific wind in your hair
The crystal clear water
The refreshing ocean air
Enjoy the sand
Lay out and get a tan
I see you've gotten attached
I hate to think you're stayin

Please come back
You took my heart with you when you left
Baby Please come back
Im not the same without you
Baby please come back
We all miss you here in texas

Sleep?

2008-06-17T16:30:20Z

So for the record if youve never sat at a computer and tried to stay awake its SOOOO hard. Im at the office right now the air is stagnant and warm...its slowly drifting me off to sleep.... but I cant fall asleep.

Last night I went to bed about 4.5 hrs earlier than I normally do. Thats what pisses me off the most; I had a great nights sleep but does it do anything for me?... NO it doesnt!

....Whatever.

Anyways Im supposed to be going to pei wei chinese for lunch but Uncle Rodney is talkin with someone in his office so Im just here waiting on him. I'll let you know what I think later. I DONT like chinese btw